i realli feel very lousy now... i feel lousy in every way u can tink of.... ppl tink of me as lousy... ANYTHING! i meant ANYTHING.... such stupid idiot can i get... this is the freaking 3rd time i accidentally drank COKE!!!! coke i mean the coke we drink.. not drug.... Arg... my whole freaking week of running is bloody wasted la.... feel like scolding vulgarities... but i have set the rules... nvm... i shall tok abt things which i wont show the hurt feelings to other... apparently... i tried the SO. So sO method on one person in my class... apparently... THINGS juz came out from her mouth, when she tried to argue back... eventually i heard sth... which i pretend not to hear " So u will fail ur A Lvl." is dat a joke? ok fine... mayb the person didnt mean it... so one of my classmates heard and told her how could she say dat.... welll her reply was rather simply... he keep saying so?
ya so? SOing doesnt mean u can say dat... i feel v hurt now... i have no motivative to work... i feel like rubbish... same goes for studies... looking at andrew... makes me feel worse... no harm here... becoz he always say dont care dont care... i feel... inferior ( mayb this word is too powerful) i feel lousy... priscillia said correctly... he doesnt need to do tutorial! his mind has alr worked it out!
my mum told me sth ytd when i got home... this is wat she say... i'm not going to include wat i say
" i have asked kev(my eldest bro) to find out if we can apply for Aus PR after u As.... tgt with dad.... den when u have graduated, dad doesnt need to work so hard anymore... cause ur fees is gonna be cheaper (PR) haha..."
well till here i was kinda happy... i thought i need to worry my As but prelim oni... guess wat she said later...
" but... i tink the law states dat one person can oni apply PR for one sibling ONLY.... my second bro has taken PR alr... OMG... to tink abt it... ppl have been asking me if i'm planning to go Aus after As.... i often reply i have not decided.... cmon... even idiots also will want to go aus for further study...probably when i'm older... my mum and dad are gonna be living with my bro in Aus... while i will be in SG or even Msia living alone...
OH YA the PR is not cfm if i can even get... need not go abt telling others.... if u happen to read this post...
GREAT... SUCH "NICE LIFE I'M LEADING"
"Knocking against the wall"
